In the Stillness

  I am in a season where I am learning a lot about the things that my heart struggles with when I lose sight of Jesus. It hasn't been the most enjoyable season, either. I have been learning that my heart, when not in tune with Christ, it is ugly and selfish. Usually full of pride, greed, selfishness, sin and just plain ugliness.  Can anyone else relate with me in that thinking?  As I sat contemplating and asking the Lord what it was that He wanted to teach me through this season, I was reminded and brought back to the stories of the disciples: particularly Judas. "And as they were reclining at the table and eating, Jesus said, "Truly, I say to you, one of you will betray me, one who is eating with me." They began to be sorrowful and say to him one after another, 'Is it I?" He said to them, "It is one of the twelve, one who is dipping bread into the dish with me. For the Son of Man goes as it is written of him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man ...

You are my King You are my joy Earnestly I seek your peace Bowing my knees With a heart of faith. And I cry "Abbah Father! Have mercy on me  And bring me out of this dry and broken land! Raise me up from the valley of death And place me at the top of the mountain So I can be with you! For it is written "better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere!"  Father- I would rather be with you than in the desert. But where I am, there you also are. Where can I go from your presence? Where can I hide from your Spirit? You know when I sit and when I rise So why I try to run and hide? Bring me up out of the valleys Bring me into your light Gather me from the four winds  And draw me close to you. I hear you say "Little girl! Get up and live!" You have raised me out of the depths  You have breathed life in my weary lungs You have restored my soul. Abbah. Father. Comforter of my soul. You hear my pleas You hear my prayers I give thanks to you For your mercies ar...